Mama's First Day At School

My first class begin last week saturday. It was Komunikasi Perniagaan i.e Business Communication which is the only subject that we have to sit and it is in Malay Language. Aiiyyyyoooooo.....my Malay language is SPM standard only, not Uni standard. Die laaaaa........

My first Malay presentation after i completed my diploma 10 years ago was horrible.

(The translations as follows)

"Dear all i've been using English language spoken and written since i left school and my spoken Malay is very bad as i will be using my Northern Accent during the conversation. My apology for that."

I keep using few English term which some of the classmates will help me to translate it to Malay. Hadoi laaaaa.........susah betoi. It was extremely difficult eventhough i had a distinction A1 in my Malay language for SPM. Normally for written Malay i would sit back and relax and think an appropriate word to use as previously i used to help few bosses to translate English letter to Malay especially when we deal with government bodies.

My Management class was also awesome as i see the overall view as a working adult. I don't need to memorize all the things as i need to understand the overall process and applied to my daily working life. I see all these differently compared to my full time study before which i memorize all the notes and answer it on paper which i dont even understand what it is all about.

I have 2 assignments to complete and i hope that i can do well in both subjects.

XOXO....

Sometimes is very hard when the other half being 'inconsiderable' on every single thing. Should another half cry, laugh, frust, hate the other half for being that way?

Cinta Sejati

Cinta sejati yang bisa
Memberi tanpa harus menerima
Dia membawa damai dan bahagiakan jiwa
Tuk semua manusia
Hanya cinta sejati yang bisa
Bertahan tanpa mengenal waktu
Takkan pernah sirna bagaikan karang di samudera
Kan abadi tuk selamanya
Seperti itulah cintaku untuk dirimu
Tulus dan apa adanya
Datang dari sebuah rasa sucinya hati
Atas nama cinta sejati
Dan bila engkau telah mengerti
Berapa besarnya artinya cinta
Hingga setiap nafas yg mengalir di tubuhmu
Mengandung cinta dari yg kuasa
  Setiap nafas yang mengalir di tubuhmu
Mengandung cinta dari yg kuasa....

 

This song performed by an Indonesian group called Element. A love song for mama's beloved friend, Aunty Tinie accountant turn professional photographer. Whoever need a pro for their photo session can look for her. (Aunty....ni mama tulong promote nih......25% bley? hahahaha.....)

A happy ending love story which mama was also involve part of it. Being a consultant, a peer  (ni time nak pi skodeng la), a listener (time2 genting menghadapi masalah Di Persimpangan Dilema) and few other things that i joined in the be her 'komplot'.....mama so happy to see both of them are happily married now (the benchmark is both of them are so 'bulat' compared to few years before. :D

Have a wonderful marriage and wonderful life together....

To Aunty Tini....mama will always be a listener, a peer (with a little escort cum bodyguard now), an a consultant like before...and i cherished every moment that we have together for the past 17 years (emo plak pagi2 nih)

XOXO......

4 ZARS is having a lunch date today in Sogo....(green color belongs to rumah Sheikh Ahmad, Skolah Derma)

Mama is going to school

I enrolled to a Bachelor Degree programme last week in International Islamic University. It is a part time degree programme which requires me to attend the classes forthnightly every 1st and 3rd weekend of the month and this requires a lot of sacrife for three of us, my husband, myself and our little Safiyyah.

My classes will begin next week and the duration for the course is merely 4 years which i have 11 semesters to complete with merely 40 subjects to finish. Half of the subjects i already sit and passed and some with distinction when i did my diploma before but i may not taking any credit transfer as i was graduated almost 10 years ago. I think it is good to refresh eventhough it takes me longer time to graduate.

I'm a bit nervous as i need to work harder than before as i have a lot of responsibility now including work, being a wife and a mother at the same time. I hope that i can do well and be one of the top student and later obtain a scholarship for my master degree.

XOXO

Orang kata jgn berangan tinggi sangat takut tak jadi....tapi bak kata kawan aku....kalo takdak angan2 takkan jadi KLCC tuh. 
Congratulations to En. Hisham Hamdan, our group head . He is now EVP of Energy & Utilities for immediate effect. 
You inspire me a lot. Thank you for your encouragement for me to pursue my degree and i hope i will be the first lady Special Officer to EVP soon. Look forward to assist you in the near future.

Tak Mungkin Kerana Sayang.....

Watched Anugerah Juara Lagu 24 on TV3 on sunday nite. One of the song contested last night was Tak Mungkin Kerana Sayang by Aliyah, composed by Ajai and lyrics by a prominent song writer, Habsah Hassan ( i heard her name since i was at younger age). These are the lyrics

Setiba di persimpangan,
Langkah kita tak lagi sehaluan
Bermula di saat itu
Tidak senada irama dan lagu

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku
Tiada ruang di hati buatmu
Namun harusku akui
Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali

Sekali segala ada
Ada rindu yang datang tiba2
Tak mungkin kerana sayang
Cuma terganggu oleh perasaan

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

The song remind me of someone whom i know, whom i used to love before. We met end of 2005 as friends and going steady in 2006. After almost a year, our relationship ends. He left me a week before Syawal and it ruined my study and i failed my exam.I should not having a relationship at the early beginning as he made me a 'stopover' after his girlfriend left him for another guy. This saddened me for quite some times but it keeps me stronger. I cried the nite after he left me as i told myself that i don't want to cry because of him anymore and yes i made it.

All happened while he was in Sudan. I was so frustrated. I was so devastated. I wasn't expect all this could happen as i do everything that he wants especially listening to his frustration when the girl left him.

"I sayang u....tapi...." the words end there. Kalau dah sayang awat buat saya camtu....yer,tak? But it's okay.....everything came back to normal after few months he left and i met a guy whom is now my husband. A man that i love my entire life, whom will always be with me for better or worst. I am happy with my life now having my husband and our daughter to be with me.

~Sekali segala ada, rindu yang datang tiba2
Tak mungkin kerana sayang, cuma terganggu oleh perasaan~

XOXO

I watched gossip girl sometimes while i was still awake when the show aired on 8TV. Every tuesday at 10.30pm. The show will end with a story teller will conclude on the episode. (story teller ka?...rasa cam ada nama lain ja) The words will end with 'XOXO'

Everytime i watched the series i wonder what is 'XOXO' means and i ended up google'ling the meaning of XOXO and it is in the wikipedia.....it means....

Hugs and kisses

Ooooo..........now i know laaaaa.......ermmmmmm..........it's been a while since i left all those jargons after few years i left my chatting world. I only chat with few friends since then. So no much new jargons that i know. What else that i missed?

XOXO.... 

hati aku jadi tak ketahwan minggu nih.....semua rasa ada.....

 

My Little Pumpkin

Anak aku ni semakin besar semakin la melampau2 notty nya. Hampir setiap tengah malam dia bangun dan mula tunjuk perasaan sebab nak tidoq dgn mama n papa. Tak kira la time tu panas ka sejuk ka.Sebelum ni kami ingatkan dia takleh lena sebab panas. So, papa pun install la aircond kat rumah. Ye la kan...dah ada rumah sendiri boleh la pasang aircond ka, tv besar gabak ka, sumer boleh lah.(soon i will write about this). Memandangkan tuan puteri kembang semangkuk tu panas, maka papa pun pasang la aircond sepjg malam. End up mama ni berbungkus cam lepat pisang dah (i cannot tahan the coldness of the aircond). Akan tetapi, keadaan hanya berubah sementara jer. Tgh mlm buta dia akan bangun pastu campak soother ke bawah pastu mula la melalak mengada2 nak suh org amik. Padahal katil dia dgn katil papa n mama x sampai pun setengah meter jauhnya. So mama pun kesian n angkat dia tido sekatil kat tengah2. Last2 dua2 beranak 'konker' katil tu n mama tidoq sikit ja kat tepi...uhuk....uhuk.....

Other than that, dia tersangat la sibuk nak mencekau glasses mama n papa. Sapa2 yg mengadap muka dia maka org tu punya glasses jadik mangsa. Dia akan tarik terus glasses tu dan sibuk plak la nak pakai kat mata dia....sabaq satno sayang.....later u'll be like both of us. Ada mata extra.

Masa umur 6 bulan dulu, dia takmo makan solid langsung sampai la umur dia 12 bulan September yg lepas. Baru la nak makan. Dah tu sumer apa yg blh di makan dia nak belasah. Mama pun dengan senang hati bangun pagi2 masa bekal. Segala maknikam resipi mama try. Pasta la, minestrone la,mashed potato n pumpkin la, But most of the time misti la banyak sayur dan kureng daging/ayam. So far seafood tak penah la lagi mama try. Luckily dia tak suka processed food. Dia prefer cooked food. Sungguh demand ini budak. Dan tersangat la tak suka makanan masam termasuk la orange, scott's emulsion orange flavour n vit c. Sungguh la susah nak paksa dia mkn scott's.

2 hari lepas dah start mendaki 2 anak tangga rumah tok mama kat s alam. Masa tu mama tgh tunggu aunty wan pi miting kat skolah. Hadoi laaaaaaaaaa.........kepeningan mama nihhh.......ada dak sapa2 nak tolong babysit anak mama yg sorg ni tah....mama n pi holiday ngn papa la.... :D...hantaq kat tok la...bley? ;))

Benda yg paling dia suka adalah ayer...kalo mandi dalam besen tu habih la basah 1 dunia. (I still bathe her in the basin...for safety reason). Bila mama nk bwk pi swimming tah la.....

That's all for now....sebenaqnya nak tunjuk pic dia yg skit punya tahan muka masa kitaorg trykan dia sunglasses comel kat carrefour 2 minggu lepas. Thinking of buying 1 for her...kalo dak dok kaco glasses mama n papa....hancoq spek baru mama plak satgi. :D

Yg ni x best la mama....

Haaaaa......yg ni best....retro skit....tapi x muat tang idung laaaaa.....

Pic courtesy of Abg Jay

Dream

I had few series of dream 2 weeks ago. One night i had a dream that i am pregnant and i can see my tummy growing bigger and bigger. The other night i while i was sleeping, i was dreaming i went to shop for babies items. Bought a moses basket, babycot, nappy etc222. After 2 days i was dreaming that i am heavily pregnant during my niece's wedding. Aiyyakkkkkkkk..........my niece is getting married on Jan 1st 2011. How arrr????

I've been thinking whether we, not we, whether i am ready for a second baby. As my little pumpkin is getting naughtier day by day, i feel like i need another year of break before having another one. Let me rest for a while ya, Pa!

But the most important thing is i need to go for a treatment before having another one to avoid pre term labour again. I can't afford to go through all this for another time. 

Deep in my heart, i can't wait to have another baby again. To see him/her grows in my tummy amd to feel what my friend call 'montot sebesar mangkuk tandas' and to feel everything all over again. I miss the time when my little pumpkin sleep on my chest everynite before i put her on her bed, i miss the time when i put her in my sling and cling her around and this time i want to breastfeed my baby until he/she reaches 2 years of age. Getting pregnant and having a baby is the most wonderful thing i've ever had in my life.( I should not tell this to my hubby as he is definately ready at any time :D)  

Gambar hiasan....aku xtau mana aku cilok pic nih

~Kadang2 kita asik melihat dan mempertikaikan kelemahan org lain sedangkan kelemahan sendiri dilindung2. Seeloknya pelihara diri dan keluarga sendiri kerana kita masih kekurangan. Tiada yang lebih.Jangan asyik menghitung kelemahan orang lain kerana kelemahan diri sendiri tidak terhitung.~