Tak Mungkin Kerana Sayang.....

Watched Anugerah Juara Lagu 24 on TV3 on sunday nite. One of the song contested last night was Tak Mungkin Kerana Sayang by Aliyah, composed by Ajai and lyrics by a prominent song writer, Habsah Hassan ( i heard her name since i was at younger age). These are the lyrics

Setiba di persimpangan,
Langkah kita tak lagi sehaluan
Bermula di saat itu
Tidak senada irama dan lagu

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku
Tiada ruang di hati buatmu
Namun harusku akui
Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali

Sekali segala ada
Ada rindu yang datang tiba2
Tak mungkin kerana sayang
Cuma terganggu oleh perasaan

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

The song remind me of someone whom i know, whom i used to love before. We met end of 2005 as friends and going steady in 2006. After almost a year, our relationship ends. He left me a week before Syawal and it ruined my study and i failed my exam.I should not having a relationship at the early beginning as he made me a 'stopover' after his girlfriend left him for another guy. This saddened me for quite some times but it keeps me stronger. I cried the nite after he left me as i told myself that i don't want to cry because of him anymore and yes i made it.

All happened while he was in Sudan. I was so frustrated. I was so devastated. I wasn't expect all this could happen as i do everything that he wants especially listening to his frustration when the girl left him.

"I sayang u....tapi...." the words end there. Kalau dah sayang awat buat saya camtu....yer,tak? But it's okay.....everything came back to normal after few months he left and i met a guy whom is now my husband. A man that i love my entire life, whom will always be with me for better or worst. I am happy with my life now having my husband and our daughter to be with me.

~Sekali segala ada, rindu yang datang tiba2
Tak mungkin kerana sayang, cuma terganggu oleh perasaan~