Mama is going to school

I enrolled to a Bachelor Degree programme last week in International Islamic University. It is a part time degree programme which requires me to attend the classes forthnightly every 1st and 3rd weekend of the month and this requires a lot of sacrife for three of us, my husband, myself and our little Safiyyah.

My classes will begin next week and the duration for the course is merely 4 years which i have 11 semesters to complete with merely 40 subjects to finish. Half of the subjects i already sit and passed and some with distinction when i did my diploma before but i may not taking any credit transfer as i was graduated almost 10 years ago. I think it is good to refresh eventhough it takes me longer time to graduate.

I'm a bit nervous as i need to work harder than before as i have a lot of responsibility now including work, being a wife and a mother at the same time. I hope that i can do well and be one of the top student and later obtain a scholarship for my master degree.

XOXO

Orang kata jgn berangan tinggi sangat takut tak jadi....tapi bak kata kawan aku....kalo takdak angan2 takkan jadi KLCC tuh. 
Congratulations to En. Hisham Hamdan, our group head . He is now EVP of Energy & Utilities for immediate effect. 
You inspire me a lot. Thank you for your encouragement for me to pursue my degree and i hope i will be the first lady Special Officer to EVP soon. Look forward to assist you in the near future.

Tak Mungkin Kerana Sayang.....

Watched Anugerah Juara Lagu 24 on TV3 on sunday nite. One of the song contested last night was Tak Mungkin Kerana Sayang by Aliyah, composed by Ajai and lyrics by a prominent song writer, Habsah Hassan ( i heard her name since i was at younger age). These are the lyrics

Setiba di persimpangan,
Langkah kita tak lagi sehaluan
Bermula di saat itu
Tidak senada irama dan lagu

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

Kau telah jauh, jauh dariku
Tiada ruang di hati buatmu
Namun harusku akui
Ada ketika di minda kau menjelma kembali

Sekali segala ada
Ada rindu yang datang tiba2
Tak mungkin kerana sayang
Cuma terganggu oleh perasaan

Begitu hidup ini
Tiada yang abadi
Yang patah tumbuh
Yang hilang berganti

The song remind me of someone whom i know, whom i used to love before. We met end of 2005 as friends and going steady in 2006. After almost a year, our relationship ends. He left me a week before Syawal and it ruined my study and i failed my exam.I should not having a relationship at the early beginning as he made me a 'stopover' after his girlfriend left him for another guy. This saddened me for quite some times but it keeps me stronger. I cried the nite after he left me as i told myself that i don't want to cry because of him anymore and yes i made it.

All happened while he was in Sudan. I was so frustrated. I was so devastated. I wasn't expect all this could happen as i do everything that he wants especially listening to his frustration when the girl left him.

"I sayang u....tapi...." the words end there. Kalau dah sayang awat buat saya camtu....yer,tak? But it's okay.....everything came back to normal after few months he left and i met a guy whom is now my husband. A man that i love my entire life, whom will always be with me for better or worst. I am happy with my life now having my husband and our daughter to be with me.

~Sekali segala ada, rindu yang datang tiba2
Tak mungkin kerana sayang, cuma terganggu oleh perasaan~

XOXO

I watched gossip girl sometimes while i was still awake when the show aired on 8TV. Every tuesday at 10.30pm. The show will end with a story teller will conclude on the episode. (story teller ka?...rasa cam ada nama lain ja) The words will end with 'XOXO'

Everytime i watched the series i wonder what is 'XOXO' means and i ended up google'ling the meaning of XOXO and it is in the wikipedia.....it means....

Hugs and kisses

Ooooo..........now i know laaaaa.......ermmmmmm..........it's been a while since i left all those jargons after few years i left my chatting world. I only chat with few friends since then. So no much new jargons that i know. What else that i missed?

XOXO.... 

hati aku jadi tak ketahwan minggu nih.....semua rasa ada.....

 

My Little Pumpkin

Anak aku ni semakin besar semakin la melampau2 notty nya. Hampir setiap tengah malam dia bangun dan mula tunjuk perasaan sebab nak tidoq dgn mama n papa. Tak kira la time tu panas ka sejuk ka.Sebelum ni kami ingatkan dia takleh lena sebab panas. So, papa pun install la aircond kat rumah. Ye la kan...dah ada rumah sendiri boleh la pasang aircond ka, tv besar gabak ka, sumer boleh lah.(soon i will write about this). Memandangkan tuan puteri kembang semangkuk tu panas, maka papa pun pasang la aircond sepjg malam. End up mama ni berbungkus cam lepat pisang dah (i cannot tahan the coldness of the aircond). Akan tetapi, keadaan hanya berubah sementara jer. Tgh mlm buta dia akan bangun pastu campak soother ke bawah pastu mula la melalak mengada2 nak suh org amik. Padahal katil dia dgn katil papa n mama x sampai pun setengah meter jauhnya. So mama pun kesian n angkat dia tido sekatil kat tengah2. Last2 dua2 beranak 'konker' katil tu n mama tidoq sikit ja kat tepi...uhuk....uhuk.....

Other than that, dia tersangat la sibuk nak mencekau glasses mama n papa. Sapa2 yg mengadap muka dia maka org tu punya glasses jadik mangsa. Dia akan tarik terus glasses tu dan sibuk plak la nak pakai kat mata dia....sabaq satno sayang.....later u'll be like both of us. Ada mata extra.

Masa umur 6 bulan dulu, dia takmo makan solid langsung sampai la umur dia 12 bulan September yg lepas. Baru la nak makan. Dah tu sumer apa yg blh di makan dia nak belasah. Mama pun dengan senang hati bangun pagi2 masa bekal. Segala maknikam resipi mama try. Pasta la, minestrone la,mashed potato n pumpkin la, But most of the time misti la banyak sayur dan kureng daging/ayam. So far seafood tak penah la lagi mama try. Luckily dia tak suka processed food. Dia prefer cooked food. Sungguh demand ini budak. Dan tersangat la tak suka makanan masam termasuk la orange, scott's emulsion orange flavour n vit c. Sungguh la susah nak paksa dia mkn scott's.

2 hari lepas dah start mendaki 2 anak tangga rumah tok mama kat s alam. Masa tu mama tgh tunggu aunty wan pi miting kat skolah. Hadoi laaaaaaaaaa.........kepeningan mama nihhh.......ada dak sapa2 nak tolong babysit anak mama yg sorg ni tah....mama n pi holiday ngn papa la.... :D...hantaq kat tok la...bley? ;))

Benda yg paling dia suka adalah ayer...kalo mandi dalam besen tu habih la basah 1 dunia. (I still bathe her in the basin...for safety reason). Bila mama nk bwk pi swimming tah la.....

That's all for now....sebenaqnya nak tunjuk pic dia yg skit punya tahan muka masa kitaorg trykan dia sunglasses comel kat carrefour 2 minggu lepas. Thinking of buying 1 for her...kalo dak dok kaco glasses mama n papa....hancoq spek baru mama plak satgi. :D

Yg ni x best la mama....

Haaaaa......yg ni best....retro skit....tapi x muat tang idung laaaaa.....

Pic courtesy of Abg Jay

Dream

I had few series of dream 2 weeks ago. One night i had a dream that i am pregnant and i can see my tummy growing bigger and bigger. The other night i while i was sleeping, i was dreaming i went to shop for babies items. Bought a moses basket, babycot, nappy etc222. After 2 days i was dreaming that i am heavily pregnant during my niece's wedding. Aiyyakkkkkkkk..........my niece is getting married on Jan 1st 2011. How arrr????

I've been thinking whether we, not we, whether i am ready for a second baby. As my little pumpkin is getting naughtier day by day, i feel like i need another year of break before having another one. Let me rest for a while ya, Pa!

But the most important thing is i need to go for a treatment before having another one to avoid pre term labour again. I can't afford to go through all this for another time. 

Deep in my heart, i can't wait to have another baby again. To see him/her grows in my tummy amd to feel what my friend call 'montot sebesar mangkuk tandas' and to feel everything all over again. I miss the time when my little pumpkin sleep on my chest everynite before i put her on her bed, i miss the time when i put her in my sling and cling her around and this time i want to breastfeed my baby until he/she reaches 2 years of age. Getting pregnant and having a baby is the most wonderful thing i've ever had in my life.( I should not tell this to my hubby as he is definately ready at any time :D)  

Gambar hiasan....aku xtau mana aku cilok pic nih

~Kadang2 kita asik melihat dan mempertikaikan kelemahan org lain sedangkan kelemahan sendiri dilindung2. Seeloknya pelihara diri dan keluarga sendiri kerana kita masih kekurangan. Tiada yang lebih.Jangan asyik menghitung kelemahan orang lain kerana kelemahan diri sendiri tidak terhitung.~

Nihon-go

I started to know about Japan since i was a little girl. Couldn't recall when was it but i think maybe it was 20+ years back. I knew it through my beloved uncle. He did his first degree till his PHD abroad and later when he came back he became a lecturer in USM, Penang. Since then, I always told people that i wanted to be like Pak Ngah, studied abroad, being a Professor at a very young age....yada...yada....yada.....

Later when i was 16, in November 1995 i was chosen to join a student exchange programme between the Ministry of Education and Hyogo Education Board. I was so excited to be in Japan and it was autumn that time. Since then, i started to learn Nihon-go but it was just a "main-main". I was not so serious until i did my bachelor degree and did my Japanese language for my third language class. My result was quite okay that time with 2 B+ and 1 A for 3 semester course.

After that i forgot almost everything until 2 weeks ago when one of my colleague attend Nihon-go class. I asked him to get the same book and started to learn the hiragana again. I talk to my princess in Nihon-go everyday to get her to know other language besides Malay,English and Arabic (her papa taught her few arabic words). She seems understands those words. The few words are :

Ohayo
Konniciwa
Abunai
Miruku o nomimasu
Asa gohan o tabemasu
Daijobu
Teribi
Otosan
Okasan

We also do the simple counting one to 10. Luckily my husband did not object for what i've been doing to our little princess. It is good for her to explore new things in her life. I wish i could do some flashcards for her so that both of us can learn Nihon-go.

Until today, i can write 15 characters in Hiragana. I know that is not much but at least i started to learn something as perhaps 1 days i could get a scholarship to do my MBA in Japan. Who knows.......my wish could come true. As my friend always told me......."Kalau takdak angan2, takkan jadi KLCC tu"

My hiragana.....it is not as good as grade 1 kids but seems ok la i think....drp xtau langsung kan....

Good News....sad ending

Met my former boss who is now heading one of the co in Motor wing few weeks ago. I was told by someone that he needs an assistant. To me it is one in a life time opportunity and i am ready to grab and work with him.

After the short conversation, he called me a week after to offer me the post and last week spoke to HR head of the co. I think it is about time for me to explore new things within the same group but in another division.

Being the smallest team in the department, only 5 of us in the funding team make us very close to each other. My mind told me that i should accept the offer from my former boss but part of my heart wants me to be here with this small tiny team. After having some words with my dear husband, i decided to move on and join the former boss.

Unfortunately, there was a very serious thing happened last week which one of the senior in the team had to leave for another department. It was chaotic as we are shorthanded and my boss was not in a good condition. She was so sad and panic since past 2 weeks as the senior person is leaving the team and at the moment we won't be able to get a replacement.

On the other hand, me who wants to leave had to retract my decision as if i left at the same time, our team will be 'patah kaki'. I am so sad that i had to turn down the offer which i've been waiting for since he left the department to Motor division but maybe it is not my 'rezeki' to work with him.

Still thinking how should i tell him about this.................me is so stress now....aduiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!